One of the most amazing part of
every pregnancy I think for most people is seeing that first scan, it makes it
all real, up until that point I didn’t quite believe it, I thought I was just
going to feel groggy for the rest of my life!
I also loved hearing baby’s heart beat at every check-up, midwives are
definitely better at giving you time to listen to it than most doctors!
Feeling the baby move is
incredible, I didn’t find the first few movements were much, but as she grew
being able to see a hand or foot sticking out was amazing. I remember one day sitting on the floor at
work with a child and the clown doctor was making him a balloon animal,
suddenly the balloon popped, the child jumped, I jumped but most amazingly my
baby in my tummy jumped, it made me realise that I had a little life forming
inside me, made me treasure it even more.
A strange memorable moment during
my pregnancy was liking chocolate again… sounds strange but the main reason I
took a pregnancy test was I couldn’t face chocolate just like my Mum couldn’t
when she was pregnant with me. For a
chocoholic that was very strange, I remember sitting at a Christmas dinner
watching everyone eat chocolate fondants and feeling very strange because I
knew I should want one, but couldn’t face one!
Then sometime after 20weeks I started enjoying eating chocolate again,
yum,yum!
The first proper cuddle with your
baby is amazing, we didn’t get a proper cuddle for a couple of hours, just a
quick one in theatre which I only vaguely remember, as we were neither of us
very well after delivery. But that first
proper cuddle when everything was calm again… I remember my friend carrying her
in to me (as she was a student midwife and had helped deliver Riley!) that
first proper cuddle and starting to feed her I will never forget.
Lastly, something I wish someone
had been honest enough to tell me, and which I think is important to
acknowledge otherwise I think a lot of new mothers feel something is
wrong. The everlasting bond people talk
about doesn’t usually occur straight away… I loved Riley so much and wanted to
provide for her, but I remember feeling so bad when the midwife came the first
night and asked if I wanted her to take her for a bit, feeling relieved, I was
exhausted. But the bond built over the
first few weeks, when she gave her first proper cheesy grin I knew I’d do
anything for her. Just don’t feel bad if
the feeling isn’t there straight away, it will come, motherhood is a huge
change, it takes time to get used to and time to get to know each other, with
or without epilepsy.
Now 12 weeks on I love being a
mum, watching Riley learn new things all the time is amazing. I love her so
much. We are a proper little family.
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