Life before Meds

Some days I find myself trying to remember how I felt before I started the Epilepsy meds... that was 9years ago now... a third of my life. Don't get me wrong I feel very lucky not to get any major side effects but sometimes I feel maybe the world is a little less sharp, I am more tired and sleep very deeply. But when I think back to compare it is impossible, my Lamotrigine has increased slowly over the years as my seizures are so infrequent and now I'm on a big dose of 450mg a day. But I'm very happy with life and if I never have a seizure again I can certainly live very happily like this. Just a thought I have sometimes.